untuk izriq :)

twin aku pasang lagu Taylor's Back To December.Oh aku sangat benci lagu tu sebab lagu sedih sangaaatttttt!

Lagu ni buat aku ingat kat sumbody yg aku slalu ignore,yang aku slalu susahkan hati,yang slalu aku tingggalkan bile aku happy.Dye ex aku,ex yang slalu aku cari bile aku susah,tp aku tinggalkn bile aku dah senang.Ok,my stupidity.I was too stupid to realize.Kebodohan aku yang aku xmampu nak maapkan sampai skarang.So officially,to Mohammad Izriq Al-Husaini Mohd Ramly,here is my apology.

Sorry for those things i did towards you.Sorry for mentioning other guy's name when i was with you.

Sorry for not being able to be a girl you hope i can be.Because i know i was terrible when i was with you,now i step aback.Forgive me because i did not fight for our long-lasting.The reason=I dont deserve a guy like you,who kept on being patient with whateva i did. *sigh*

That day,i was too confident i can change myself,to appreciate you more than before.I wish i could.I did istikharah,i did solat hajat,with hope Allah can make you as mine.I promised myself to b a better girl,for you.I was happy cuz you were like "feeling the same thing as me".I told my two sisters that i hav sum1 to introduce to them.It was you.My sistas said : Kalo serius,kumpul la duit dari sekarang.

which means,diorang restu.Yeah,they were glad that i had sum1 by my side.

But that night,i was speechless.Your words.I still couldnt believe you said it all.But...I believe,you did that because you have your own reason,which i dont want to know.As soon as i replied your text,which was the last text i would be sending you,i threw all the pain,all the regrets away because i know,i dont deserve you.

That night,along with the bursting tears,i did pray that you will find someone better than me.That endless prayer,only to comfort myself.Now you went away.

Dear 'That Girl':

This is just my sincere words,no anger,no revenge,I just wish you can make him happy just like i wish i can do for him.And remember,please listen when he says he is stressed,when he says he is happy and when he says he misses his family at kampung.

Please call him if he is in 'silent mode' cuz he might not feeling well.

Please make sure he has his breakfast,his lunch and his dinner.

Please do not mention any guy's name when you're with him.

Please remind him about prayer's time.Please do not throw whatever he gives,like i did.

Please tell his mama that i miss her and to adik Nisa,that i couldnt visit her.couldnt touch her plump cheeck.

Please take care of him,wholeheartedly.

And may Allah bless both of you.

                                                                                                      never again yours,

                                                                                                Sheeda